Sunday, February 10, 2013
Can't Touch This!
Whenever I see the image of this poor kid in his salmon-colored shirt and gecko-printed "Hammer Pants," that crazy song goes off in my head. If your time was before "Hammer Time," simply take a few bars from troubled rocker Rick James' most well-known tune, then add the warning: "U Can't Touch This!!"
You know my mind marches to the varying beats of its own, large, drum line. Still, I'm guessing you're wondering how I'm going to go from Rick James to life encouragement.
Well, it's all about the things I can and can't control. Things I can and can't touch.
When my guys were little, I could control stuff like what they ate and watched. I couldn't control when they were going to throw-up or wet through training pants.
As they grew, I could control who they spent the night with or went to a ballgame with. I couldn't control those darned, little girls who wanted to smile at them.
Now? Well, it's pretty much down to controlling what I cook and what kind of toilet paper I buy...for when they visit home.
Most days, I can't even control my own emotions.
As I've grappled for years with the things I can and cannot "touch," I always go back to two things that give me the comfort I so desperately need:
1) God is in control.
2) God decides who or what can or cannot touch lives.
Sometimes I want to jump in front of my boys, daughter-in-law, grandson, husband...and shout, "You can't touch this!!"
Then I am reminded that God's ways are much, much higher than my ways. I am reminded of the times my life has been "touched" by things that were completely out of my control. And sometimes, these things seemed all-bad.
But, I know better...now.
Some of my biggest moments of despair and heartbreak led me exactly where God wanted and needed me to be. Some of my hugest disappointments have caused me to evaluate things that needed evaluated. Brought me to a place where I made a change.
My misguided, crazy instincts have me puttin' on the "Hammer Pants," diggin' out some huge, car-ornament for a necklace, and dustin' off the boom box. I want to dance all around my kids, my grandkid, my husband, my friends, my life, and yell...at the top of my lungs, "Can't touch this!!"
God must be chuckling a good bit before He whispers in my ear, "You're going to throw something terribly out of whack there, Sis. Better let Me get this."